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4/26/11

I don't want to die. I fear the unknown. I fear change. I fear change because it is the unknown. I won't know what to do. I don't know what to expect. I can't plan for it. If I'm right, I will just not exist. I can't even fathom that. I don't want to not exist. I still want to exist in some way no matter what. I can't "wing it." I can't stand not knowing what I'm doing. Fear of judgment. Fear of what other people think. Fear of not knowing everything always all the time.